Those of you who know me know I have struggled athletically this last year.  I have come to the conclusion that growth can be painful.  My ego is HUGE and causes a foggy head most of the time.   (hard to admit)  6.0 and I were out on a bike ride this past weekend and it caused me to reflect on what it is that truly makes me happy.  Since I was on my bike my mind focused on that aspect of me-Biking Andrea.  My legs were burning and I asked myself if I liked that sensation.  The answer was and is no yes.  I think it is supposed to make me feel alive.  It gives me fitness and it gives me strength.  Biking gives me a connection to the outside that is different than what I get in the water and what I get on the run.  Right now I am pretty uncomfortable on my bike, but I am able to embrace that feeling and appreciate where I am.  Maybe I am stripping down my ego one pedal stroke at a time.  Anyhow, we rode a route we frequently ride and I had an amazing  ride!  Funny how when I release the past ( “I used to be fit and now I am not.”) and focus on what is right here, right now everything is just as it should be.

My work buddy, Stephanie, and I are still running over lunch.  There are times when I struggle to run 5 miles and I do not look forward to the suffering, but being out there with a buddy is one of the things I love about running.  I have an opportunity to connect with someone and create a relationship in my life that I enjoy.  There is an escape from work and a chance to breath in the air, feel the sunshine, and touch the outside.  

I wrote the previous words in September and am just now getting around to posting this.  Today I am working on being happy right where I am.  I do not always feel like I am living the life I want to live, but I have not been able to make the changes to live the life I think I should live.  What does that mean?

Happy Holidays!  Happy Training!  Happy Living!